Stephanie Gagos - My Voice of Truth

What is the law of attraction? The law of attraction is a universal law that applies to everyone. As vibratory beings we give off signals/vibes which attract like beings and experiences that are a match to what we feel and think. We create our lives through our thoughts and emotions. Like attracts like.

For many years I felt like I was a victim. I carried this belief from childhood into adulthood behaving in victimlike ways and recreating the trauma of my childhood. Now of course as a child I was victimized but because I held onto this feeling and continued to think in victimlike ways, I continued to attract more and more situations in which I was victimized as an adult.

Most of my I did not have any understanding of the power I had to create what I wanted in my life. I did not understand that I could choose who and what I attracted. I surely did not think I could control my thoughts or emotions. I thought I was at the mercy of some outside force and at the mercy of my own damaged mind and heart. I only hoped that things would eventually get better somehow.

Two years ago I was introduced to the law of attraction through a book entitled, Ask and it is Given by Jerry and Esther Hicks. I read the whole first half of the book in one sitting. I'll never forget the beauty of that day and how I could actually feel the eyes I used to see the world literally changed, as if the fog lifted, the dark sunglasses brightened. I remember closing the book and going outside just to soak in nature and the incredible love and joy I felt from the Universe. I was loved and the Universe, God, Source, whatever label you want to put on "It", wanted me to be happy. It wanted to give me all of my desires and all I needed to do was ask and allow. In allowing I would receive the divinely inspired information needed to create and receive. Source would show me the way. All I had to do was trust the process and myself and the ideas would come, the doors would open.

And then came the questions and doubts. The book is a record of channeling sessions in which a group of nonphysical beings collectively called Abraham speak through Esther. I was like, what? Luckily I didn't much pay attention to the introduction till after reading the first half. I thought to myself, how do we even know that it's true, maybe she's lying, maybe it is all Esther and Abraham is all made up to make it seem more real and true. I didn't understand or even believe in channeling but because the message was so pure and had on a spiritual level reached inside of me and touched me on such a deep level, I was able to put aside the way the message was conveyed. How could I ignore this precious gift of empowerment and liberation? I couldn't and I wasn't about to ignore my experience and my connection to something greater than myself or my new understanding of my own power. I was going to embrace it and deal with my questions as I went along.

Once I got past the channeling issue, I found myself grappling especially with the idea that we attract even the most horrible things to us. And what did that mean for children who are abused and the rape victim? I could not accept that children attraced abuse to them or that a rape victim could possibly attract such a horrific crime to them. Where did that leave the perpetrator? I had trouble with these ideas, serious trouble. But how I could I say I believed in the law of attraction and ignore these issues? How could I share this new found knowledge to my fellow survivors and ignore what would obviously be a glaring question. It was bound to come up and I wanted to know the answers for myself as well.

I thought about my grandaughter and what a powerful creator she is, how she has manifested cats and bunny rabbits just by mentioning them. The next day after talking about bunnies and cats, in her two year old way, sure enough there is a rabbit or a cat outside our window. I also see how much she is influenced by the vibrations of those around her. How she senses when we are emitting negative vibes, and how she too will become cranky or suddenly angry. I've witnessed her mother fear that she will catch a cold and sure enough after talking out loud about being sick, my granddaughter starts to develop symptoms. Then I think back to my mother and the low vibrations that were rampant in my home for most of my life. I think about the depression, the hopelessness, I think about how my mother's father was a pedophile and how he probably did the same thing to her that he did to me. What kind of energy would that cause her to give out as she saw me grow into the ages of her own molestation. How much did her own vibe influence mine? After being molested once, how did my own vibration change? I know the answer to that, I know how I held my head down and how obviously vulnerable I was.

Eventually I became a magnet to those that were looking for someone to prey upon, to those whose vibration was that of insecurity, perverseness, those that were looking for someone to dominate. And so there is a difference between saying that a child chose to be abused and saying that their vulnerability and fear made them a target, a magnet if you will to those who needed someone just like that in order to commit their crimes and get away with them. This is why so many of us are victimized over and over again. This is why victims of sexual abuse are often raped as adults. They do not choose this but their fear based thoughts and emotions translate to an energy that attracts those who are looking for someone to overpower.

This understanding led me to take a good look at my own vibration and what I was attracting into my life. The fact that I could at any moment change it was so freeing. I didn't have to remain a victim, I could change my thinking thereby changing what I felt and what I created in my life. Much harder to do of course but doable and I have spent the last two years consciously creating what I want in my life. Of course there are things that are unknowable and of course I could be wrong but since what happens in your life is based on what you believe, I choose to believe in the law of attraction and that will make it true for me.

Today I share this with you so that if it resonates, you will begin to consider asking your own questions and forming your own understandings around it. According to the law of attraction, it is in place and always working whether you believe it or not. I'd rather work with it than to believe that my life is out of my own hands. I hope that you will consider that your own power. The following are some other survivors sharing their own understandings of the law of attraction and how they live by this Universal law. They were kind enough to answer some difficult questions and I thank them.

If and only if you feel comfortable share a little about the kind of abuse you suffered and the ways it has affected your life.

I don’t remember any specific memories about the abuse I suffered but I know within every cell in my body that I was sexually abused by my father. I’m not sure when it started or when it ended. I remember only glimpses of my life up until the age of twelve. This was how old I was when my father and mother finally divorced and my father no longer lived at home.

In your own words what is the Law of Attraction?

To me the Law of Attraction means that what we believe, feel, and know to be true becomes reality for us. We can control these things and therefore we can create our own reality.

Describe your journey with the Law of Attraction from your beginning understandings and struggles to where you are now.

I have believed in the Law of Attraction long before I was aware of a name for it. It took some time for me to fully take responsibility for my life and what it had become… poor relationships, struggling with money, frustration, and general stress. Once I understood that my beliefs were creating my reality, I felt empowered to be able to change it. That was fantastic for me. Over time I have wavered back and forth between what society believes and what my heart does. I am now practicing daily to maintain a positive focus, one of appreciation and joy, as I bring about creating my desires.

How did the knowledge of the Law of Attraction help you as an abuse survivor?

As to where my thoughts, beliefs, and emotions were during the abuse I can’t recall. Listening to what my siblings remember lead me to believe that it was a family of alcohol abuse, anger, and possibly mental and physical abuse. It is quite possible that I felt I was nothing and was treated as such.

The Law of Attraction has helped me tremendously to move beyond my past. It is my past and it has no power over me any longer. It is not part of now. We are all energy and we can choose not to hold on to those thoughts or feelings that have caused pain or suffering for they can only bring us more pain and suffering. They do not have to be part of our current vibrations.

What advice would you give to other abuse survivors who are wanting to learn more about the Law of Attraction and begin consciously using it in their lives? What is your take on the Law of Attraction and children who are abused?

When their abuse took place they were not aware of how their thought patterns and emotions created the energy that drew the situations to them. Now they can begin to understand that they can create any life they want if they are willing to let go of those old feelings and thoughts. They are here now and now is what is important. Their focus can be placed on how they are deserving of a rich and beautiful life filled with joy, trust, unconditional love, and all the goodness that the world has to offer.

For me I had to first come to the conclusion that the person who had abused me (now living less than two minutes from my home) was not going to be able to cause me any pain, suffering, or harm, because I was not going to allow it. I was not going to let anyone take away from my happiness. I deserve, as everyone else does, to enjoy life to the fullest.

I hope that my sharing can help someone reclaim there own life.

Michelle – Queen Of All I Survey

If and only if you feel comfortable share a little about the kind of abuse you suffered and the ways it has affected your life.

The abuse I'd suffered was physical, mental and emotional. I never got whippings. I got beatings. Rough ones, too. My Dad, mostly. The first time that happened with him I was beaten with the sharp end of a razor-strap. I still have little scars on the back of my legs. I remember he'd straddle my chest and hit me in the face, spit on me sometimes, too. I'd get jumped for the strangest things or, sometimes, for nothing.I 'd be in my room reading or outside playing and had to run for my life more times than I care to remember. But I'll be the first to admit that there finally came a point when I'd deliberately set him off just to get him mad. I know it's because I had a lot of anger built up inside of me by that time. So I'd do it and then run like the wind until he'd cool off and it was safe for me to go back to the house. My mom wasn't as active as he was in this department, but she did her damage, too. I have a scar from a butcher knife on my left leg. Got that from her when I was eleven. She was more into the mental and emotional abuse. I was always told that I was "no good." That I'd "never amount to anything; Your'e so smart you're stupid;" you get the picture. Emotionally, I never really had any affection from my parents. I was told that I wasn't wanted. That no one could ever love me or want me around. My parents were there when I was sick and did take good care of me during those times, but as soon as I was well, it was the same old,same old again. I remember I was tired of that early on. I swear I felt like an old woman in my heart by the time I was ten. There came a point in time when I was carted off to the Detention Home, not because of me but because of what was going on at home. It was for my "protection." It was the only thing they (the system) could really do at the time. They'd classify me as "unruly' just to be able to pull me out of the house.You see, my dad was a lawyer in good standing and the law likes to take care if it's own. So, I felt like I was being punished for being a victim but, at the time, it was about all anyone could really do to help me. Detention, group homes....I missed my sisters. Never did finish school. Emotionally it hurt me deeply, but I would be safe for awhile.

In your own words what is the Law of Attraction?

The Law of Attraction is about bringing things into your life that make a difference in how you think, feel and act. For some people it's material things. For others spiritual or emotional. Maybe it's all of them or something else But the thing is it's all about helping your life to be better....to be the abundant buffet that God put you here to enjoy. That's the light side of it. There is a darker side: If you are always thinking negative, self-defeating thoughts....if you're holding onto anger, hate, thoughts of revenge well guess what! You're trying to climb up the side of a vertical mudpit that's going to keep you there in the muck and mire until you build a ladder using positive thoughts and feelings. See the good as much as possible.....live the good in yourself.

Describe your journey with the Law of Attraction from your beginning understandings and struggles to where you are now?

I'd first heard of the LOA a few years ago. I was living in a small town and things like this are "out there" in a place like that. All that was ever available was conventional therapy, if you will, and it just seemed to be a band-aid. I didn't want any more band-aids; I wanted healing. Well, you know what they say...when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. That teacher was the internet and a wonderful group I'd found on it. So, I was a major lurker and would read about this LOA and began to see a viable opportunity to grow as a spiritual and human being. It wasn't easy at first because IT WAS EASY. Too good to be true. Finally, I'd decided I needed to shelve the intellect and just accept it. I had to understand that just because other things could be so hard, this didn't have to be. Once I got over that hurdle...wow! Once I understood that I didn't need to understand, just accept.....once I understood that I am worthy....once I'd silenced the memories in me that would tell me I wasn't worthy.....man, I just haven't looked back!

How did the knowledge of the Law of Attraction help you as an abuse survivor?

This may be the toughest question for me to answer but I promised truth. The truth is I lived in an emotional shell for so long. When I became involved in the LOA, I can't tell you I'd embraced it wholeheartedly at first. I still had reservations but thought I'd give it a go with smaller things in the beginning. Well, it worked so the smaller things have gradually become bigger things and it has enriched my life in ways I never imagined. I have real friends now. I have better family relationships and my mom and I have grown closer lately. I am grateful for that. (my dad died awhile ago but I don't hate him anymore) The point is...it's opened my heart up and now I feel life again. I feel it and, as strange as this may sound, I can cry again and that is such a relief to me. I feel life down to my soul and I'm alive again and embrace it, good or bad, for everything that it's worth. It's like I came back from the dead. I think it's because I feel happier myself. I'm not powerless. I am somebody. My life does make a difference and the Universe hears me, too. I am loved and it lets me know that every single day. I really have learned not only how to love again, but how to BE loved.

What advice would you give to other abuse survivors who are wanting to learn more about the Law of Attraction and begin consciously using it in their lives?

Do it. Just do it. You've got nothing to lose. You don't need to buy books or cd's. They're nice but not necessary. There are a lot of places on the internet....groups, articles, websites, people...that will help you with this free of charge. If you want books and all, that's great. But don't think because you don't have any you'll be out of the loop. Not at all. Put the principle behind the LOA into practice. Start small if you want, but start! Do something! Feel better about yourself. Understand who you are and what you can do. You can do anything, be anything you want to be. But open your heart to it and find out what a beautiful place the world can truly be for you. What advice would you give to other abuse survivors who are wanting to learn more about the Law of Attraction and begin consciously using it in their lives? What is your take on the Law of Attraction and children who are abused?

Childhood is like being in a car. You're too young to drive. The grown-ups do that. Oh sure, you can sit behind the wheel, play with the pedals, make all the cool noises, but turn the key on and you couldn't see where you were going. Grown -ups can see. That's their job. So you sit in the backseat and you ride along because, when you're little, it's about all you can do. You don't understand the principles of driving. You haven't been taught yet. You have to go wherever, whenever because you don't know that you have the ability to drive and you certainly don't get the opportunity. That pretty much puts you at the mercy of the driver(s). So wherever the front of the car goes, the backseat goes with it. Whether you like it or not. But then you get older and one day, you're given a key. Maybe you look at the old family car and you think, " Yeah, I'll keep it," because it's comfortable and you're used to it.Or maybe something better comes along...like a car with an LOA logo on it...and you decide to take that for a spin. You keep it because you like the way it rides even better. And while you're driving you figure something out...YOU never chose the family car. It wasn't your fault if it fell apart or didn't work right. You were just a passenger. Not a mechanic or driver. You were just there, whether you wanted to be or not. But as soon as you were given a choice......children don't have the choices adults do. They know nothing about laws; they only know love. Adults are the ones who are given choices. What choice will you make?